Fuck me? When I did nothing but treat you right and never give up on you. Fuck me, when I was there for you every time anything went wrong ever. Fuck me, for all the times I went out of my way just to put a smile on your face because seeing you happy made me happy. Fuck me for all the times you vented to me and we looked out for each other and you opened up to me cause you trusted me no matter how people treated you before me. Yeah that makes perfect sense, fuck me. People would kill to be treated the way I treated you and never gave up, fought for you. Still am. At the end of the day I don’t wanna fight, I wanna make things work cause I actually truly care about you. But your going to feel how you feel and I’ll never be able to change that, yeah fuck Nick. That makes perfect sense
What really eats at me is how easily you let go. I know you 100% felt the same thing I did. You said it yourself, “sometimes I think to myself your the one I’m suppose to be with” yet you shut down all your emotions cause you don’t want a relationship. I get it, your not ready. And I don’t think I am either, but the however many months we spent talking showed me their is true potential there, we both know it. Does anyone know how hard it is to not give up on someone who gave up on themselves? Your so use to up and leaving and quite frankly i am too, it’s the worst feeling in the world. All I can really say is thank you for supporting me in arguably the darkest time in my life, you helped me when all abandoned me, all I ask is one day when you reevaluate us, we pick up where we left off, cause we both deserve it. Again thank you for the many amazing memories and all the help, I hope to hear from you soon saying your ready to give it another shot, us together we were so happy and I really can’t give up on that.
I want you to promise me something. And I don’t care if you don’t know me, like me, or like making promises in general. Just do it.
Promise me that you will keep on living, even when everything is futile.
I want you to forgive yourself for the things that you’ve done. I want you to forgive yourself for the things that you should have done. Forgive yourself, even when you don’t think you deserve it.
I want you to love yourself for all that you are and all that you are not. I want you to love yourself, even if no one else does. You do not need the validation from another human being in order to know your worth. You do not need others to love you in order to show you that you are worth loving. The love that you develop for yourself is more than enough. Love yourself enough to stand on your own, without depending on the love of anyone else.
So stop injecting drugs to avoid reality. Stop with the pills and the cutting. Stop with the thoughts on jumping off a building and hanging yourself. Stop hating yourself and regretting about the past. Stop with the ‘what ifs’ and the ‘should have beens.’ And don’t you dare pull that trigger. Stop.
Stop and love yourself. It is the least you can do for you.
if we’re dating you can have your freedom, you’re not my prisoner. just stay loyal & be honest. that’s all i ask muhfucka.
Two months into our relationship you once asked me how much I loved you and I just said “From here”. You didn’t get it and you got mad and thought I was playing around.
Breaking up after almost two years together, I sent you a message 6 months later saying “To Here”.
You still didn’t get it.
Naw thats fucked up